Nagging has become her favourite or even only hobby... She's been nagging over every little thing... I am getting so fed up and frustrated that I can't be bothered to talk to her. Today, she confronted me... She claimed that a medium told her that I have a boyfriend. Yeah! Indeed... Its true that I have a boyfriend. In fact, not 1 is a lot! All guy friends I have are my boyfriend... I was so hurt... Really hurt... She actually choose to believe a medium and not me, her own flesh and blood. She never believe whatever I say. So what's the point of me talking to her? I don't see the need at all. Not at all...
Went Orchard for interview last Friday. Before I set off, I told her that I'll be going for my driving lessons followed by an interview at Orchard. And she will forever end that call with "I want you to be home early." in a demanding tone. I am so tired of that sentence. Can't she say something like "Good luck for your interview." I know she meant well, but she is over sensitive. After the interview, I went for my dinner with Sherline at Taka. And she called and shouted what am I doing there. I was pissed off. Super pissed off. I shouted loudly at her that I had an interview at Orchard, of course I'll have my dinner there. All eyes were all on me that instance...
She's afraid that guys out there are out to cheat me and thus being so protective. She's afraid that I will lose my chastity even before I get married. In her eyes, I am forever a little girl who never seem to grow up. She's out to control me... My everything... I really hate her for that. Can't she give me adequate space of freedom and privacy... She opens all my letters... She ask who I am going out with. She ask where am I going. She dislike me going Orchard. But Orchard has become the place I frequent with my buddy every saturday. Tell me how many places in Singapore can we go? When she called, I'll tell her that I am at Orchard. And there goes the blast into my ears shouting why everytime go Orchard. Is there anything wrong with going Orchard? Why don't she ask why everytime go toilet... Must I even report to her what time and which toilet I went to today? If she wants to control me till that extend, might as well install some surveillance camera on me so that she will be well-informed of all my actions. Every single actions...
I really felt so suffocated... Is there anyway to get me out of this so that I can breathe freely... I hate to stay at home. I rather be out for one whole day and not listen to her continuous nagging. But no matter what, I can never escape from her clutches... She will forever be nagging because it is her hobby...
She claimed that she don't expect good results from us. All she want is just >70. Isn't 70 a B for poly or even A for JC and sec sch... Ok... I never scored A in my JC years, but in poly, Yes and in sec sch... Yes... And she say that my results are not good... Wat the HELL! I am so disappointed... Everytime when I get my results, i expect some words of encouragement or praise. But it never come... It will always lead to disappointment... I agree that my results are not good enough, I am already disappointed in myself, and she's there splashing cold water, it makes me feel even worse... I admit I'm stupid, but just some form of encouragement won't hurt at all right... Don't think I will tell her my results when I receive next Thursday... No point telling her...
11:24 PM ♥
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Oh my goodness... There's so many things on my mind that I want and have to settle. First and foremost, I have to try my utmost best to complete my driving by the end of this holidays which means that I will would not be able to work as an account assistant. If I can work, at least I have some income into my pocket to buy things which I had always wanted and need. (Opportunity Cost! Haha...)Haiz... Dashed my hopes of working for experience and money... Hopefully I can get at least some 2-3 days kind of jobs in order to secure a small amount of income... Gona call up those agencies for help on Monday...
Next, I have to save as much money as possible! So many things on my buying list after going out with Sherline today... And my god, they are quite ex...
Went to top up my money at BBDC with Sherline today so that I can book my practical lessons... After that, we headed straight for Orchard to settle our growling and hungry stomach...
Then, we went esprit as Sherline wants to buy some cosmetics for her prom... And some thing funny happened when we were there... Did not realise that Esprit actually gave further discount even though you have dicount coupons. After Sherline passed the cashier the coupon, she actually asked for Esprit card... Luckily I haven return it to the pig... Then, after making the purchases and gone through a mini- makeover lesson by the sales person, Sherline decided to buy the blusher... So I passed her the esprit card again. This time, the sales person asked Sherline this question: Sales Person: Your friend's name is ****** arh? (a bit shocked) Sherline: No arh... (laughing) Sales Person: Oh... So this is her boyfriend's card arh? Sherline: Yah... (Both of them were laughing) Upon seeing them laughing, I walked towards them and the sales person relate to me what did they say. I was like -_-"... Erps... I was thinking, he is not my boyfriend lah... Haha... But it will be good if this is true... heez...
We were told by the cashier that if we want the members' card, have to spend $300 in a single receipt. Both of us immediately gave those Oh My God look to each other. So much! $300~!!! -faints- But the kind sales person added that Raffles Place will be having some cat walk on 8 April-10 April. During that 3 days, just spend $100 in a single receipt, you will be entitled to the members' card. So Sherline and I will most probably go there and take a look... Heez.. That's where I need money! Think I might get myself some cosmetics... Heez... Its time I learn how to put on makeup... Today, put on some light makeup to conceal my heavy eyebags and my makeup is done by my sis... So paiseh... Argh... This is the time... I think...
Mom called and SHOUTED at me... Real loud! I could even heard what she was SHOUTING when I hold my phone some distance away from my hurting ears. She shouted that I have been going out eversince my exams end. Hello... Since you know that my exams ended, I definitely need some breather to relax my brains and myself. And I am 20 ALREADY... You don't have to cage me like a bird. I know what I can do and I know what I should not be doing. I hate this life. I really hate her for controlling me until I can admit I can go mad, crazy, bonkers anytime. Everything she also want to control, what path should I go in my studies, my life, my curfew, my dressing and etc... I am really tired of everything... Is there any way I can be free from all these detesting stuffs? Always wanted to talk to her about all these. Want her to try to understand how terrible to have curfew at 10pm. How stressful not being able to go out and let my hair down for a few consecutive days. How torturing to study something which I hated, do not understand so the list goes on and on. But I know that it will always end up with both of us shouting at each other and me crying... But I am really glad that I stood firm, real firm to get into Accountacy, the course which I had always wanted to enter since sec school. I am really thankful for having that determination and not let her have her way for once in my life. I really hope that I can be free from all the ropes that she tied so tightly onto me and not letting me have enough space to breathe, to relax... If this goes on, I am not surprise if I sink into depression again... This time, I might not be able to get out of this shit again... Never again....
2:03 AM ♥
Friday, April 01, 2005
Yeah! Exams are finally over! Hopefully I can get at least an A for 3 of the modules. Although I did not managed to balance the figures for FFA, but I know where my mistakes are. Being stubborn by nature and not willing to give up, I actually redo the whole question 3. And I proved myself right. It is calculation error!!!! Argh... Careless mistake again. Just because of that figure, it leads to a big mistake of not being able to balance the balance sheet. I am supposed to minus the Inventory Surplus from the Cost of Goods Sold, but I went to add when I even wrote "Less" beside it. Careless me... *knocks head*. Other than that, everything is correct. But I think, the most I will be deducted a few marks. Luckily, I balanced my balance sheet for the asset part, if not, I think I will be penalised more. Anyway Wan Ling, you want to know the answers right? I'll type it down here...
Gross Profit: 56,752 Net Profit: 4,165 Balance Sheet: 383,809
Was really very unlucky after my exams. Was on my way to Marina with my classmates and I felt my watch’s buckle loosen. So when I tried to tighten it, my watch dropped. So my immediate reaction was to look at the ground, but there was nothing! Practically nothing! Omg… My heart sank that instance… That watch was given to me by my mother on my 15th birthday and it cost $200+ as there are diamonds and is scratch-resistant and is of great sentimental value. Omg omg omg… Wonder whether is it possible to send an email to all ngee ann students to see who is holding onto it now? I certainly believe that it is with someone now and hopefully is a ngee ann student. This is like searching for a needle in a haystack. Haiz… If I really cannot find it, the last resort is to go back to the same watch shop and ask the boss to find a replica for me. Don’t intend to tell my mom about this… This time I really have to pray real hard that the person is a kind soul who will actually return stuffs to the owner… Please God…
Went out for a night of fun, laughter and photo-taking with my dear classmates yesterday. Had steamboat at Marina... Quite nice.... Yummy~ It makes me drool at the thought of the tom yam soup and those chicken which we cooked... Heez... We shall go there again k... Heez... Played bowling after that... Think I had some beginner's luck... Struck quite a few times and the best part is the system did not sense that I actually threw the bowling ball in already, and when I hit all the pins in the 2nd round, it was counted as strike. Haha... Don't know whether did I use the correct terms or not... On our way to the mrt station to go home, my gal friends and I started to run across the road like as if there are approaching cars, but in fact, there were none. And this classmate of mine, lay on the road just because there wasn't any cars. All of us started to burst into laughter. Haha... That is really the most dangerous stunt of the day! Haha... Reached home quite late, but luckily my parents were already asleep, if not, a heated argument between my mother and I might just start in the middle of the night.
Ok... Let me go back to last week... Went for rebonding on Good Friday. Was really tired of trying to memorise my modules, so I decided to go rebonding with Sherline. Spent around 6 hours just to get my hair straight. No pain, no gain... After that, we went Maxwell for dinner. Stupid! Was cheated by that Bak Kut Teh stall... Sherline and I shared a VERY SMALL bowl of pig's trotters and the kuay chap and these cost up to $13! And the worse part is that she charged us for something which we did not order. And when we realised it, we tried to argue with her just to get back a ferw dollars of refund but to no avail. Humph~ Can you imagine, so unreasonable! It is such a despicable way of doing business. Not going to patronise that stall ever again...
After that, we went to this little stall where there's this machine to help people to read palm sign and both of us had our palms read. I should say it is quite accurate for me... Heez... Then, we decided to head for home after buying egg tarts! Yum yum~... On our way to the mrt station, we passed by many bridal shops and there's this guy who tried to promote a certain package for us. So the curious Sherline went in to listen more, and I followed suit. After listening for like half an hour, we were really attracted to their area of expertise and the part which actually made us sign up for the portfolio is they are invited to all the concerts to take pictures of all the singers! So can you imagine how professional are they? I saw all the Liang Jing Ru's pics! How I wish I can have those pictures and even be able to take pics with her. Jay Chou's pictures were also there... Haha... So now, I have to save $200 for that portfolio. Hope the final product will not disappoint me at all....
On Saturday, that pig msged me. He wanted to meet me so that I can return him his esprit card. But I was still sleeping, so after I woke up, I replied him. But he did not reply me, instead is his best friend. So at the split seconds, I assume that the pig is angry. Maybe I think too much... Then I asked his friend whether is he angry and his friend replied that he is sad. So I was probe further and asked why is he sad. And that reply kinda brighten my day. But don't know how true is it... Heez... Hope it is 101% true! Haha...
Did you actually felt the earthquake the other day? I felt it, and it was scary. Though not very serious, but it is enough to terrorise me... I was studying when it happened. Everything was shaking and I thought I was sick due to lack of sleep. But when I look at my Hifi wire and my keychain, it is indeed moving like pendulum non-stop. I was puzzled. I did not on the fan how will it actually move on its own. I hurried took note of the time and on the radio. Sometime after, they announced the earthquke. Till then, I realised the reason behind the moving of my stuffs...
Going to shoo off to get some sleep... Haha... Been looking like a panda... Hope to see him on Sat! Simply miss him lotz...
11:53 AM ♥
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Nagging has become her favourite or even only hobby... She's been nagging over every little thing... I am getting so fed up and frustrated that I can't be bothered to talk to her. Today, she confronted me... She claimed that a medium told her that I have a boyfriend. Yeah! Indeed... Its true that I have a boyfriend. In fact, not 1 is a lot! All guy friends I have are my boyfriend... I was so hurt... Really hurt... She actually choose to believe a medium and not me, her own flesh and blood. She never believe whatever I say. So what's the point of me talking to her? I don't see the need at all. Not at all...
Went Orchard for interview last Friday. Before I set off, I told her that I'll be going for my driving lessons followed by an interview at Orchard. And she will forever end that call with "I want you to be home early." in a demanding tone. I am so tired of that sentence. Can't she say something like "Good luck for your interview." I know she meant well, but she is over sensitive. After the interview, I went for my dinner with Sherline at Taka. And she called and shouted what am I doing there. I was pissed off. Super pissed off. I shouted loudly at her that I had an interview at Orchard, of course I'll have my dinner there. All eyes were all on me that instance...
She's afraid that guys out there are out to cheat me and thus being so protective. She's afraid that I will lose my chastity even before I get married. In her eyes, I am forever a little girl who never seem to grow up. She's out to control me... My everything... I really hate her for that. Can't she give me adequate space of freedom and privacy... She opens all my letters... She ask who I am going out with. She ask where am I going. She dislike me going Orchard. But Orchard has become the place I frequent with my buddy every saturday. Tell me how many places in Singapore can we go? When she called, I'll tell her that I am at Orchard. And there goes the blast into my ears shouting why everytime go Orchard. Is there anything wrong with going Orchard? Why don't she ask why everytime go toilet... Must I even report to her what time and which toilet I went to today? If she wants to control me till that extend, might as well install some surveillance camera on me so that she will be well-informed of all my actions. Every single actions...
I really felt so suffocated... Is there anyway to get me out of this so that I can breathe freely... I hate to stay at home. I rather be out for one whole day and not listen to her continuous nagging. But no matter what, I can never escape from her clutches... She will forever be nagging because it is her hobby...
She claimed that she don't expect good results from us. All she want is just >70. Isn't 70 a B for poly or even A for JC and sec sch... Ok... I never scored A in my JC years, but in poly, Yes and in sec sch... Yes... And she say that my results are not good... Wat the HELL! I am so disappointed... Everytime when I get my results, i expect some words of encouragement or praise. But it never come... It will always lead to disappointment... I agree that my results are not good enough, I am already disappointed in myself, and she's there splashing cold water, it makes me feel even worse... I admit I'm stupid, but just some form of encouragement won't hurt at all right... Don't think I will tell her my results when I receive next Thursday... No point telling her...
11:24 PM ♥
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Oh my goodness... There's so many things on my mind that I want and have to settle. First and foremost, I have to try my utmost best to complete my driving by the end of this holidays which means that I will would not be able to work as an account assistant. If I can work, at least I have some income into my pocket to buy things which I had always wanted and need. (Opportunity Cost! Haha...)Haiz... Dashed my hopes of working for experience and money... Hopefully I can get at least some 2-3 days kind of jobs in order to secure a small amount of income... Gona call up those agencies for help on Monday...
Next, I have to save as much money as possible! So many things on my buying list after going out with Sherline today... And my god, they are quite ex...
Went to top up my money at BBDC with Sherline today so that I can book my practical lessons... After that, we headed straight for Orchard to settle our growling and hungry stomach...
Then, we went esprit as Sherline wants to buy some cosmetics for her prom... And some thing funny happened when we were there... Did not realise that Esprit actually gave further discount even though you have dicount coupons. After Sherline passed the cashier the coupon, she actually asked for Esprit card... Luckily I haven return it to the pig... Then, after making the purchases and gone through a mini- makeover lesson by the sales person, Sherline decided to buy the blusher... So I passed her the esprit card again. This time, the sales person asked Sherline this question: Sales Person: Your friend's name is ****** arh? (a bit shocked) Sherline: No arh... (laughing) Sales Person: Oh... So this is her boyfriend's card arh? Sherline: Yah... (Both of them were laughing) Upon seeing them laughing, I walked towards them and the sales person relate to me what did they say. I was like -_-"... Erps... I was thinking, he is not my boyfriend lah... Haha... But it will be good if this is true... heez...
We were told by the cashier that if we want the members' card, have to spend $300 in a single receipt. Both of us immediately gave those Oh My God look to each other. So much! $300~!!! -faints- But the kind sales person added that Raffles Place will be having some cat walk on 8 April-10 April. During that 3 days, just spend $100 in a single receipt, you will be entitled to the members' card. So Sherline and I will most probably go there and take a look... Heez.. That's where I need money! Think I might get myself some cosmetics... Heez... Its time I learn how to put on makeup... Today, put on some light makeup to conceal my heavy eyebags and my makeup is done by my sis... So paiseh... Argh... This is the time... I think...
Mom called and SHOUTED at me... Real loud! I could even heard what she was SHOUTING when I hold my phone some distance away from my hurting ears. She shouted that I have been going out eversince my exams end. Hello... Since you know that my exams ended, I definitely need some breather to relax my brains and myself. And I am 20 ALREADY... You don't have to cage me like a bird. I know what I can do and I know what I should not be doing. I hate this life. I really hate her for controlling me until I can admit I can go mad, crazy, bonkers anytime. Everything she also want to control, what path should I go in my studies, my life, my curfew, my dressing and etc... I am really tired of everything... Is there any way I can be free from all these detesting stuffs? Always wanted to talk to her about all these. Want her to try to understand how terrible to have curfew at 10pm. How stressful not being able to go out and let my hair down for a few consecutive days. How torturing to study something which I hated, do not understand so the list goes on and on. But I know that it will always end up with both of us shouting at each other and me crying... But I am really glad that I stood firm, real firm to get into Accountacy, the course which I had always wanted to enter since sec school. I am really thankful for having that determination and not let her have her way for once in my life. I really hope that I can be free from all the ropes that she tied so tightly onto me and not letting me have enough space to breathe, to relax... If this goes on, I am not surprise if I sink into depression again... This time, I might not be able to get out of this shit again... Never again....
2:03 AM ♥
Friday, April 01, 2005
Yeah! Exams are finally over! Hopefully I can get at least an A for 3 of the modules. Although I did not managed to balance the figures for FFA, but I know where my mistakes are. Being stubborn by nature and not willing to give up, I actually redo the whole question 3. And I proved myself right. It is calculation error!!!! Argh... Careless mistake again. Just because of that figure, it leads to a big mistake of not being able to balance the balance sheet. I am supposed to minus the Inventory Surplus from the Cost of Goods Sold, but I went to add when I even wrote "Less" beside it. Careless me... *knocks head*. Other than that, everything is correct. But I think, the most I will be deducted a few marks. Luckily, I balanced my balance sheet for the asset part, if not, I think I will be penalised more. Anyway Wan Ling, you want to know the answers right? I'll type it down here...
Gross Profit: 56,752 Net Profit: 4,165 Balance Sheet: 383,809
Was really very unlucky after my exams. Was on my way to Marina with my classmates and I felt my watch’s buckle loosen. So when I tried to tighten it, my watch dropped. So my immediate reaction was to look at the ground, but there was nothing! Practically nothing! Omg… My heart sank that instance… That watch was given to me by my mother on my 15th birthday and it cost $200+ as there are diamonds and is scratch-resistant and is of great sentimental value. Omg omg omg… Wonder whether is it possible to send an email to all ngee ann students to see who is holding onto it now? I certainly believe that it is with someone now and hopefully is a ngee ann student. This is like searching for a needle in a haystack. Haiz… If I really cannot find it, the last resort is to go back to the same watch shop and ask the boss to find a replica for me. Don’t intend to tell my mom about this… This time I really have to pray real hard that the person is a kind soul who will actually return stuffs to the owner… Please God…
Went out for a night of fun, laughter and photo-taking with my dear classmates yesterday. Had steamboat at Marina... Quite nice.... Yummy~ It makes me drool at the thought of the tom yam soup and those chicken which we cooked... Heez... We shall go there again k... Heez... Played bowling after that... Think I had some beginner's luck... Struck quite a few times and the best part is the system did not sense that I actually threw the bowling ball in already, and when I hit all the pins in the 2nd round, it was counted as strike. Haha... Don't know whether did I use the correct terms or not... On our way to the mrt station to go home, my gal friends and I started to run across the road like as if there are approaching cars, but in fact, there were none. And this classmate of mine, lay on the road just because there wasn't any cars. All of us started to burst into laughter. Haha... That is really the most dangerous stunt of the day! Haha... Reached home quite late, but luckily my parents were already asleep, if not, a heated argument between my mother and I might just start in the middle of the night.
Ok... Let me go back to last week... Went for rebonding on Good Friday. Was really tired of trying to memorise my modules, so I decided to go rebonding with Sherline. Spent around 6 hours just to get my hair straight. No pain, no gain... After that, we went Maxwell for dinner. Stupid! Was cheated by that Bak Kut Teh stall... Sherline and I shared a VERY SMALL bowl of pig's trotters and the kuay chap and these cost up to $13! And the worse part is that she charged us for something which we did not order. And when we realised it, we tried to argue with her just to get back a ferw dollars of refund but to no avail. Humph~ Can you imagine, so unreasonable! It is such a despicable way of doing business. Not going to patronise that stall ever again...
After that, we went to this little stall where there's this machine to help people to read palm sign and both of us had our palms read. I should say it is quite accurate for me... Heez... Then, we decided to head for home after buying egg tarts! Yum yum~... On our way to the mrt station, we passed by many bridal shops and there's this guy who tried to promote a certain package for us. So the curious Sherline went in to listen more, and I followed suit. After listening for like half an hour, we were really attracted to their area of expertise and the part which actually made us sign up for the portfolio is they are invited to all the concerts to take pictures of all the singers! So can you imagine how professional are they? I saw all the Liang Jing Ru's pics! How I wish I can have those pictures and even be able to take pics with her. Jay Chou's pictures were also there... Haha... So now, I have to save $200 for that portfolio. Hope the final product will not disappoint me at all....
On Saturday, that pig msged me. He wanted to meet me so that I can return him his esprit card. But I was still sleeping, so after I woke up, I replied him. But he did not reply me, instead is his best friend. So at the split seconds, I assume that the pig is angry. Maybe I think too much... Then I asked his friend whether is he angry and his friend replied that he is sad. So I was probe further and asked why is he sad. And that reply kinda brighten my day. But don't know how true is it... Heez... Hope it is 101% true! Haha...
Did you actually felt the earthquake the other day? I felt it, and it was scary. Though not very serious, but it is enough to terrorise me... I was studying when it happened. Everything was shaking and I thought I was sick due to lack of sleep. But when I look at my Hifi wire and my keychain, it is indeed moving like pendulum non-stop. I was puzzled. I did not on the fan how will it actually move on its own. I hurried took note of the time and on the radio. Sometime after, they announced the earthquke. Till then, I realised the reason behind the moving of my stuffs...
Going to shoo off to get some sleep... Haha... Been looking like a panda... Hope to see him on Sat! Simply miss him lotz...