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Hey... I m finally bac here to update my blog... Been MIA for a few wks le bah... haha... Heez... Firstly, abt my job... Was workin at Paragon for 1 wk wif Laimeng... And tt is the stupidiest job i ever had lorz... Poly n uni students are supposed to come to us to redemn a free Starbucks coupon... Its FREE k... Really free... PLus, u dun hav to pay a single cent in order to redemn a free drink... Jus present the coupon and u'll be able to get a free 12oz drink of ur choice leh... But strange enough, is our generation nt as kiasu as the older generation or wat??? There's 1000 coupons waiting to be redemned, but only 200 ppl came... Waahaha... Tt's really a flop sia... HEez... Den on wed, Laimeng sprained her neck... ANd on tis very day, i met a CRAZY GUY... He's really crazy leh... He approached me to ask me to donate $10 to help the aged and oso get a free bag in return... Haha... JUs nice on tt very day, i din bring alot of $$ out... So i jus donated $2 as a small contribution lorz... Den tis crazy n fat guy, complimented me by sayin I hav a gd heart and plus i look very pretty and so gav me a bag... -_-|| Wat the HeLL!!! Den he started chattin to me, when i cant even b bothered wif him cos i was playin com game... Haha... Den i tink he felt irritated by me nt conentratin to him, he walk and stand beside me... And suddenly, he touched my right hand!!!! Argh!!! Stupid fat guy... And i suddenly shouted... Den he say, sorry sorry, and say my hand very smooth... Wat the hell....!!! And keep askin me whether gt bf anot, can go after me anot... Den say sm really stupid tings like, if i m wif him, i can choose whether i wan to work or stay at hm kiao ka cos his mthly income is abt $2k... Stupid lah... $2k in singapore is nt much lorz... Fat guy... And i wun choose a fat guy who is so bhb... Nt tt i tink i m pretty lah, but jus tt, the look of him really make me wana puke... Den i cant b bothered n left at 1pm for lunch with tt shuai ge... Heez... He mit me outside Paragon main entrance n i was there early.. While waitin for him, i saw tis crazy fat guy again... Wat the... The look of him really make me lose appetite lorz... Jus then... the shuai ge came... Haha.. So shuai... buay tahan... Then tis fat guy ask whether is he my bf anot... Aiyoh, if i noe, i faster hold his hand and say, " Yah, is that ur business?" haha... but of course i din lah... Then the fat guy stopped my shuai ge and ask whether is he my bf anot... but too bad, i walk away liao, din get to hear his ans... Anyway, he sure say no lah... which is the truth... Had lunch together at lucky plaza... In the 1st place, b4 we mit, he asked me whether i wan to join his 2 frens at cineleisure subway anot.. and i say anything... But when we mit, he say dun wan liao... Wonder y he change his mind... haha... me thinkin too much liao lah... haha... Was like so happy to see him after 2 mths, and we tok while eating.. haha... he so shuai, so cute, so funny... haha... Den he bot honeydew juice for me to drink... Haha... And he bluff me its a mixture of honeydew, apple n durian... Yah yah, durian... tot i stupid arh... haha... Read his testimonials in friendster, haha... all really describe till like very gd wor... haha... but so far i noe him, he is really gd... heez... After tt crazy guy askin me whether is his my bf, i really felt like sms the shuai ge, I LIKE U... but, i m scared to noe his ans cos after all, he doesn't wan a gf for 5 yrs... haiz... wonder tis phrase "the truth always hurts" is always true?? Or mayb i m jus sensitive tt he has gt a little feelings for me... Yah, i m tinkin too much... far too much le... haiz...

4:44 PM
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Started workin at Standard Chartered Bank on 6th April. Heez... Pay not bad wor... $6.30/hr... And on the first day of work, i was told by one of the head tt i'll hav to do OT everyday till abt 10pm...!!! Omg... I was shocked when i heard tt... Cos tis SCB branch is nt near my hs lorz... Though there's a direct bus there... But hor... Very tirin one leh... Budden, the OT pay is $9.45/hr wor... Heez... Stayed till 10pm on the first day, but din stay bac on wed n thurs cos i lazy to stay lah... Den the colleagues there are alright... Heard frm a perm staff that there are a lot of temp staff workin at tt SCB branch... Haha... But i oso dun wan to noe sm of them cos they look so bitchy... Yucks....! Heez... Me sounds bad lah... But tt's ME... Bleah...~ Hopefully they'll extend my contract cos workin der is rather relax for me other than havin to do OT and the pay is the best among all the other admin jobs i've done so far... heez... Aiyoh, basically is bcos of the pay lah... haha... Was on my way to Bukit Gombak after work... Den feel asleep on the train den suddenly my hp ring... Tot who called me... Haha... Its laimeng! Was shocked at tt time... Den somehw gt tis feelin that she is somewhere near me... And i started lookin ard the train and she's jus sittin directly opposite me!!! Wahahha... Wat a coincidence! She's on her way hm after work... And saw me slping... Luckily i din drool while slpin sia... If nt damn paiseh... Wahahahahaha.... Heez.... Chat for a while den she alight the train le... Heez... So happy to see you!!! (~_^) Was readin Desmond's testimonial for me jus nw... Was kind of shocked at wat he wrote... Din noe 03s16 guys tok abt my ehem... Tink sherline's fav quote said was true to some extend... "Guys are horny bastards"... Den today went to the gym wif my ex-colleague at maybank... heez... The facilities der nt bad leh... $2.50/entry.. Nt too ex lorz... It looks like it has jus renovated the gym cos everything seems so new... Ran on the running machine for half an hr...!!! Haha... Felt so accomplished after tt... But legs abit wobbly... But was ok after a while... Haiz... So long din exercise le, felt so happy that i can at least get rid of some of my fats which were accumulated over the past few months... Arranged wif zhu tou (my colleague) to go to the gym next week. Heez... She suggest to go der weekly... I wan, i wan, i wan!!!! HEez.. Can't wait to remove all the excess fat... After tt, went to orchard to meet sherline... Went to look and try the few blouse i wan... Currently hav 2 in mind... One is a white off shoulder blouse at Phuture London which cost $39 and another one is a giodano shirt which cost $18... heez... I wan to wait for the next pay and withdrew part of it to pay my mom my hp bill, den buy the perfume i've been waitin for-Miracle!!! Haha... Hope when i apply tis perfume, a miracle will happen betw me and Ahem *w|nks* Me lamin arh... Went to cineleisure and bot a skirt for $20... Nice nice... And its purple!!! Heez... Its a really nice purple... Even sherline oso find it nice... Heez... Den went to use the esprit voucher my frens gave me as bdae present... Bot 2 tops... Very nice... Heez... Took a really long time to find suitable shirts cos i've tried on ALOT of shirts, but all too big... Tink esprit should hav XS or even XXS for all the clothes der... If nt gers like bounce wun be able to buy and wear le... Haha... One is an off shoulder shirt and another is a tank top... Heez... Was on my way to gio at ngee ann city, den my mom suddenly called... WTH lah...!!! Already told her i'll b gg out wif sherline on fri and will b hm b4 6pm... And i even did all the hswk b4 gg out... Therefore i dun see a reason for her being mad at me... Siao zha bor! Control me until like tis... Was so damn angry wif her when she called me. Kept scoldin me and accusin me of being lying... Wat the F**K lah... So angry tt i cried after i hang up the call... Tink i really shocked sherline when i cried... Sorry for tt ger... Suddenly the past jus came appearin in my mind... My results, depression, hswk and everything... She is the one who caused me to waste 2 yrs in jc, she's the one who almost ruin me... If tt's wat she wan, might as well dun give birth to me in the very first place... Wat the.... Everytime when i chat wif sherline on the fone, she will ask whether m i tokin to my boyfriend. Told her umpteen times tt i DO NOT have a boyfriend. And when i go out wif my ex-colleague, she will ask whether m i lesbian cos my colleague looks quite like a guy at a glance cos of her dressin and hairstyle... And i jus say "YES" and her ans was, i've wasted my time and money bringing you up... If my mom is really afraid of me being a lesbian, so y nt let me hav a bf??? Isn't she contracdictin herself??? And she keep tellin me guys out there are not good... If tis is the case, y she bother to get married in the very first place since there are no good guys out there??? wat the shit man... And i believe no matter hw bad guys are, they'll still be sweet, caring and nice to the one they deeply love... Tokin abt tis bgr tingy... Suddenly really really fee like seein him after nt being able to see him for more than a mth... Really miss him alot... I nid courage!!!! I jus need some courage to confess to him... At least, i wun be filled wif regrets even if his ultimate choice of gf or life partner is not me... "I Love Him"...

8:18 PM
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Instructions.
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Anything you don't bold is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies. (hahaha)
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person. 30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I like cheese.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra. Otherwise I don't have boobs.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I like pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart...
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on my computer.
49. I often want to throw my computer out the window.
50. I live on the first floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied before.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds. (lol!)
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate science with a passion.
61. I like to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and curly.
67. My nails are nine inches long.
68. One of my favorite colors is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not on AOL.
74. I hate government.
75. I have a boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can. Though I never have time.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I sometimes like arguing.
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month. (haha)
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I learn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very emotional.
99. I love being "ab-normal".
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue

Haiz... Today is a rather busy and sad day for me... Woke up ard 1 in the afternoon den start doin hswk. Changed the fish tank water, iron the clothes, hang up the clothes, wash all the utensils den went downstairs to pass my mom the umbrella cos she's washin her hair at the salon.... Went out for dinner ard 7+ and came hm straight.... Haiz... Was online chattin wif a few frens, and suddenly my sis came into my rm n told me my luohan fish passed away... Din believe her initially... But after touchin my fish, i broke down... It is really dead... It will never swim in the tank and look at me anymore... Can't stop cryin for smtime... It was already sick for a couple of months, and all of a suddenly, it left me... Bought a new medicine for it tis afternoon... Perhaps the medicine is too strong tt's y she passed away... Haiz... No wonder the one fish kept lookin at the sick one... Tink it must hav sensed tt she will b dyin soon... So sad... Jus can't stop feelin sad for my fish... Haiz... At least she ended her suffering... Hope she will b beta off in another world... Jus wan to let tt fish of mine noes... "I Love You"... Though you do not noe how to tok, but whenever i m watchin the tv, you will b der lookin at me... Its like u are tryin to communicate to me... I m glad tt you were der to brighten my day... and my family's too... I Love You.... Hope you will rest in peace...

1:19 AM
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Yeah... I m bac here again after erm... a wk or so??? Heez... Dunnoe wat to type so din bother to update my blog... Nw oso dun noe wat to type... My temp admin job ended yesterday... Haiz.. Nw hav to go job huntin again... Meet Sherline yesterday to go embassy for dinner... Before gg der, we went to dunnoe wat bridge near Fullerton Hotel and took some nice nice pics... And we oso saw 3 couples takin weddin pics der... Haha... Went to the bridge on last dec and both of us oso saw 1 weddin couple takin weddin pics der... Haha... Funny sia, we go der always get to see weddin couples... hAha... Embassy hor...Wow, its so romantic der... Heez... The food der is YUMMY! Nice... With membership card, each person cost abt $20, quite reasonable lorz... And its like we are payin for the ambience and the service... Cos when i went der, the waiter help to pull the chair to let me sit and push it in when i sit down... Haha... Will go der for dinner again when Sherline has the money... Heez.. Dun wan to waste the membership card.. So any of u out der, if wan to borrow it and go der hav a Romantic dinner with ur special one, jus let me noe k... I'll lend it to u provided u dun lose it lah... hEez... After completin our main course, we tot we've completed everything and hence asked for the bill. Den the waiter said they haven serve us our deserts... Den we were like oh.. ok... We felt so sua gu all of a sudden... Haha... After our desert, we paid up and left for the toilet... And i realised sth, on the way to the toilet, the floor is transparent. Tt means to say, ppl at the 1st level can see wat u r wearin "under" if they jus look up!!! Omg!!! Felt so disgusted... And the pics in the toilet are so disgustin oso... Omg!!! And, dun dress in total white if u go der... Cos if u go to the toilet, ppl can see wat u are doin in the cubicle jus by lookin at the floor... Its ur Reflection! So beta dress in dark coloured clothes k.... Heez... After tt, we rushed to suntec cos i wan to see a shirt at Samuel & Kelvin. Luckily the shop haven close cos by the time we reach der already 9.10. Phew... Tried on tis shirt which i find it nice and humph~ Its too big for me! Argh...! I like it so much leh.. Asked for XS but they dun hav... -_-|| Den sherline took another rather nice shirt for me to try... Its an off-shoulder shirt... Too big oso! Argh....! Y dun they hav XS!!!! Angry wif them... Humph...! So in the end, i din buy any of the shirt der... Nvm, i still hav another shirt in mind... Heez... After tt, we went home le, cos so late le, oso nothin much to shop, all the shops are either closed or closin... Den while i was workin, he msged me!!! Wahaha... Lalala... Heez... So happy~! I jus noe tt i miss him deeply... Heez... And both of us were crappin... Haha... Come to tink of it, quite stupid and funny... haha... Ard afternoon, 93.3FM has gt tis program called "Ying Yue Ri Ji"... Will try to listen to it, and some of the stories are really touchin. And after listenin to it, sometimes i really hav the urge to tell him i like him... But still, i dun hav the courage to do so.. Arh... Y m i so timid!!!! Hate myself... Haiz... Den today is April Fools' DAy, he msg me! heez... the msg started wif "I Love You" den i was like shocked for a few seconds and suddenly i reminded myself today is april fools' day... so i continued wif the msg, and true enough, its a april fools' msg... haiz... hw i wish today is nt april fools' day... And i oso received tis msg before, it starts with "I miss you" instead... And i told my colleague abt tis and forwarded tis msg to her... And she told me last time she received it before. And hers starts wif "I miss you" instead of "I love you" oso... den i was like.. haha... ok... Is it he himself who went to alter tis msg or it was already i love you when it was forwarded to him... Only he noes abt tis...

10:08 PM
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Hey... I m finally bac here to update my blog... Been MIA for a few wks le bah... haha... Heez... Firstly, abt my job... Was workin at Paragon for 1 wk wif Laimeng... And tt is the stupidiest job i ever had lorz... Poly n uni students are supposed to come to us to redemn a free Starbucks coupon... Its FREE k... Really free... PLus, u dun hav to pay a single cent in order to redemn a free drink... Jus present the coupon and u'll be able to get a free 12oz drink of ur choice leh... But strange enough, is our generation nt as kiasu as the older generation or wat??? There's 1000 coupons waiting to be redemned, but only 200 ppl came... Waahaha... Tt's really a flop sia... HEez... Den on wed, Laimeng sprained her neck... ANd on tis very day, i met a CRAZY GUY... He's really crazy leh... He approached me to ask me to donate $10 to help the aged and oso get a free bag in return... Haha... JUs nice on tt very day, i din bring alot of $$ out... So i jus donated $2 as a small contribution lorz... Den tis crazy n fat guy, complimented me by sayin I hav a gd heart and plus i look very pretty and so gav me a bag... -_-|| Wat the HeLL!!! Den he started chattin to me, when i cant even b bothered wif him cos i was playin com game... Haha... Den i tink he felt irritated by me nt conentratin to him, he walk and stand beside me... And suddenly, he touched my right hand!!!! Argh!!! Stupid fat guy... And i suddenly shouted... Den he say, sorry sorry, and say my hand very smooth... Wat the hell....!!! And keep askin me whether gt bf anot, can go after me anot... Den say sm really stupid tings like, if i m wif him, i can choose whether i wan to work or stay at hm kiao ka cos his mthly income is abt $2k... Stupid lah... $2k in singapore is nt much lorz... Fat guy... And i wun choose a fat guy who is so bhb... Nt tt i tink i m pretty lah, but jus tt, the look of him really make me wana puke... Den i cant b bothered n left at 1pm for lunch with tt shuai ge... Heez... He mit me outside Paragon main entrance n i was there early.. While waitin for him, i saw tis crazy fat guy again... Wat the... The look of him really make me lose appetite lorz... Jus then... the shuai ge came... Haha.. So shuai... buay tahan... Then tis fat guy ask whether is he my bf anot... Aiyoh, if i noe, i faster hold his hand and say, " Yah, is that ur business?" haha... but of course i din lah... Then the fat guy stopped my shuai ge and ask whether is he my bf anot... but too bad, i walk away liao, din get to hear his ans... Anyway, he sure say no lah... which is the truth... Had lunch together at lucky plaza... In the 1st place, b4 we mit, he asked me whether i wan to join his 2 frens at cineleisure subway anot.. and i say anything... But when we mit, he say dun wan liao... Wonder y he change his mind... haha... me thinkin too much liao lah... haha... Was like so happy to see him after 2 mths, and we tok while eating.. haha... he so shuai, so cute, so funny... haha... Den he bot honeydew juice for me to drink... Haha... And he bluff me its a mixture of honeydew, apple n durian... Yah yah, durian... tot i stupid arh... haha... Read his testimonials in friendster, haha... all really describe till like very gd wor... haha... but so far i noe him, he is really gd... heez... After tt crazy guy askin me whether is his my bf, i really felt like sms the shuai ge, I LIKE U... but, i m scared to noe his ans cos after all, he doesn't wan a gf for 5 yrs... haiz... wonder tis phrase "the truth always hurts" is always true?? Or mayb i m jus sensitive tt he has gt a little feelings for me... Yah, i m tinkin too much... far too much le... haiz...

4:44 PM
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Started workin at Standard Chartered Bank on 6th April. Heez... Pay not bad wor... $6.30/hr... And on the first day of work, i was told by one of the head tt i'll hav to do OT everyday till abt 10pm...!!! Omg... I was shocked when i heard tt... Cos tis SCB branch is nt near my hs lorz... Though there's a direct bus there... But hor... Very tirin one leh... Budden, the OT pay is $9.45/hr wor... Heez... Stayed till 10pm on the first day, but din stay bac on wed n thurs cos i lazy to stay lah... Den the colleagues there are alright... Heard frm a perm staff that there are a lot of temp staff workin at tt SCB branch... Haha... But i oso dun wan to noe sm of them cos they look so bitchy... Yucks....! Heez... Me sounds bad lah... But tt's ME... Bleah...~ Hopefully they'll extend my contract cos workin der is rather relax for me other than havin to do OT and the pay is the best among all the other admin jobs i've done so far... heez... Aiyoh, basically is bcos of the pay lah... haha... Was on my way to Bukit Gombak after work... Den feel asleep on the train den suddenly my hp ring... Tot who called me... Haha... Its laimeng! Was shocked at tt time... Den somehw gt tis feelin that she is somewhere near me... And i started lookin ard the train and she's jus sittin directly opposite me!!! Wahahha... Wat a coincidence! She's on her way hm after work... And saw me slping... Luckily i din drool while slpin sia... If nt damn paiseh... Wahahahahaha.... Heez.... Chat for a while den she alight the train le... Heez... So happy to see you!!! (~_^) Was readin Desmond's testimonial for me jus nw... Was kind of shocked at wat he wrote... Din noe 03s16 guys tok abt my ehem... Tink sherline's fav quote said was true to some extend... "Guys are horny bastards"... Den today went to the gym wif my ex-colleague at maybank... heez... The facilities der nt bad leh... $2.50/entry.. Nt too ex lorz... It looks like it has jus renovated the gym cos everything seems so new... Ran on the running machine for half an hr...!!! Haha... Felt so accomplished after tt... But legs abit wobbly... But was ok after a while... Haiz... So long din exercise le, felt so happy that i can at least get rid of some of my fats which were accumulated over the past few months... Arranged wif zhu tou (my colleague) to go to the gym next week. Heez... She suggest to go der weekly... I wan, i wan, i wan!!!! HEez.. Can't wait to remove all the excess fat... After tt, went to orchard to meet sherline... Went to look and try the few blouse i wan... Currently hav 2 in mind... One is a white off shoulder blouse at Phuture London which cost $39 and another one is a giodano shirt which cost $18... heez... I wan to wait for the next pay and withdrew part of it to pay my mom my hp bill, den buy the perfume i've been waitin for-Miracle!!! Haha... Hope when i apply tis perfume, a miracle will happen betw me and Ahem *w|nks* Me lamin arh... Went to cineleisure and bot a skirt for $20... Nice nice... And its purple!!! Heez... Its a really nice purple... Even sherline oso find it nice... Heez... Den went to use the esprit voucher my frens gave me as bdae present... Bot 2 tops... Very nice... Heez... Took a really long time to find suitable shirts cos i've tried on ALOT of shirts, but all too big... Tink esprit should hav XS or even XXS for all the clothes der... If nt gers like bounce wun be able to buy and wear le... Haha... One is an off shoulder shirt and another is a tank top... Heez... Was on my way to gio at ngee ann city, den my mom suddenly called... WTH lah...!!! Already told her i'll b gg out wif sherline on fri and will b hm b4 6pm... And i even did all the hswk b4 gg out... Therefore i dun see a reason for her being mad at me... Siao zha bor! Control me until like tis... Was so damn angry wif her when she called me. Kept scoldin me and accusin me of being lying... Wat the F**K lah... So angry tt i cried after i hang up the call... Tink i really shocked sherline when i cried... Sorry for tt ger... Suddenly the past jus came appearin in my mind... My results, depression, hswk and everything... She is the one who caused me to waste 2 yrs in jc, she's the one who almost ruin me... If tt's wat she wan, might as well dun give birth to me in the very first place... Wat the.... Everytime when i chat wif sherline on the fone, she will ask whether m i tokin to my boyfriend. Told her umpteen times tt i DO NOT have a boyfriend. And when i go out wif my ex-colleague, she will ask whether m i lesbian cos my colleague looks quite like a guy at a glance cos of her dressin and hairstyle... And i jus say "YES" and her ans was, i've wasted my time and money bringing you up... If my mom is really afraid of me being a lesbian, so y nt let me hav a bf??? Isn't she contracdictin herself??? And she keep tellin me guys out there are not good... If tis is the case, y she bother to get married in the very first place since there are no good guys out there??? wat the shit man... And i believe no matter hw bad guys are, they'll still be sweet, caring and nice to the one they deeply love... Tokin abt tis bgr tingy... Suddenly really really fee like seein him after nt being able to see him for more than a mth... Really miss him alot... I nid courage!!!! I jus need some courage to confess to him... At least, i wun be filled wif regrets even if his ultimate choice of gf or life partner is not me... "I Love Him"...

8:18 PM
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Instructions.
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Anything you don't bold is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies. (hahaha)
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person. 30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I like cheese.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra. Otherwise I don't have boobs.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I like pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart...
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on my computer.
49. I often want to throw my computer out the window.
50. I live on the first floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied before.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds. (lol!)
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate science with a passion.
61. I like to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and curly.
67. My nails are nine inches long.
68. One of my favorite colors is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not on AOL.
74. I hate government.
75. I have a boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can. Though I never have time.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I sometimes like arguing.
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month. (haha)
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I learn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very emotional.
99. I love being "ab-normal".
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue

Haiz... Today is a rather busy and sad day for me... Woke up ard 1 in the afternoon den start doin hswk. Changed the fish tank water, iron the clothes, hang up the clothes, wash all the utensils den went downstairs to pass my mom the umbrella cos she's washin her hair at the salon.... Went out for dinner ard 7+ and came hm straight.... Haiz... Was online chattin wif a few frens, and suddenly my sis came into my rm n told me my luohan fish passed away... Din believe her initially... But after touchin my fish, i broke down... It is really dead... It will never swim in the tank and look at me anymore... Can't stop cryin for smtime... It was already sick for a couple of months, and all of a suddenly, it left me... Bought a new medicine for it tis afternoon... Perhaps the medicine is too strong tt's y she passed away... Haiz... No wonder the one fish kept lookin at the sick one... Tink it must hav sensed tt she will b dyin soon... So sad... Jus can't stop feelin sad for my fish... Haiz... At least she ended her suffering... Hope she will b beta off in another world... Jus wan to let tt fish of mine noes... "I Love You"... Though you do not noe how to tok, but whenever i m watchin the tv, you will b der lookin at me... Its like u are tryin to communicate to me... I m glad tt you were der to brighten my day... and my family's too... I Love You.... Hope you will rest in peace...

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Yeah... I m bac here again after erm... a wk or so??? Heez... Dunnoe wat to type so din bother to update my blog... Nw oso dun noe wat to type... My temp admin job ended yesterday... Haiz.. Nw hav to go job huntin again... Meet Sherline yesterday to go embassy for dinner... Before gg der, we went to dunnoe wat bridge near Fullerton Hotel and took some nice nice pics... And we oso saw 3 couples takin weddin pics der... Haha... Went to the bridge on last dec and both of us oso saw 1 weddin couple takin weddin pics der... Haha... Funny sia, we go der always get to see weddin couples... hAha... Embassy hor...Wow, its so romantic der... Heez... The food der is YUMMY! Nice... With membership card, each person cost abt $20, quite reasonable lorz... And its like we are payin for the ambience and the service... Cos when i went der, the waiter help to pull the chair to let me sit and push it in when i sit down... Haha... Will go der for dinner again when Sherline has the money... Heez.. Dun wan to waste the membership card.. So any of u out der, if wan to borrow it and go der hav a Romantic dinner with ur special one, jus let me noe k... I'll lend it to u provided u dun lose it lah... hEez... After completin our main course, we tot we've completed everything and hence asked for the bill. Den the waiter said they haven serve us our deserts... Den we were like oh.. ok... We felt so sua gu all of a sudden... Haha... After our desert, we paid up and left for the toilet... And i realised sth, on the way to the toilet, the floor is transparent. Tt means to say, ppl at the 1st level can see wat u r wearin "under" if they jus look up!!! Omg!!! Felt so disgusted... And the pics in the toilet are so disgustin oso... Omg!!! And, dun dress in total white if u go der... Cos if u go to the toilet, ppl can see wat u are doin in the cubicle jus by lookin at the floor... Its ur Reflection! So beta dress in dark coloured clothes k.... Heez... After tt, we rushed to suntec cos i wan to see a shirt at Samuel & Kelvin. Luckily the shop haven close cos by the time we reach der already 9.10. Phew... Tried on tis shirt which i find it nice and humph~ Its too big for me! Argh...! I like it so much leh.. Asked for XS but they dun hav... -_-|| Den sherline took another rather nice shirt for me to try... Its an off-shoulder shirt... Too big oso! Argh....! Y dun they hav XS!!!! Angry wif them... Humph...! So in the end, i din buy any of the shirt der... Nvm, i still hav another shirt in mind... Heez... After tt, we went home le, cos so late le, oso nothin much to shop, all the shops are either closed or closin... Den while i was workin, he msged me!!! Wahaha... Lalala... Heez... So happy~! I jus noe tt i miss him deeply... Heez... And both of us were crappin... Haha... Come to tink of it, quite stupid and funny... haha... Ard afternoon, 93.3FM has gt tis program called "Ying Yue Ri Ji"... Will try to listen to it, and some of the stories are really touchin. And after listenin to it, sometimes i really hav the urge to tell him i like him... But still, i dun hav the courage to do so.. Arh... Y m i so timid!!!! Hate myself... Haiz... Den today is April Fools' DAy, he msg me! heez... the msg started wif "I Love You" den i was like shocked for a few seconds and suddenly i reminded myself today is april fools' day... so i continued wif the msg, and true enough, its a april fools' msg... haiz... hw i wish today is nt april fools' day... And i oso received tis msg before, it starts with "I miss you" instead... And i told my colleague abt tis and forwarded tis msg to her... And she told me last time she received it before. And hers starts wif "I miss you" instead of "I love you" oso... den i was like.. haha... ok... Is it he himself who went to alter tis msg or it was already i love you when it was forwarded to him... Only he noes abt tis...

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