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Wah... it's been some time since i jus updated my blog... Was nt in the mood to update it cos i was damn worried with my results and being able to promote to J2 is really a gigantic question mark to me.... Finally, on thurs, Mdm goh released the promotion results one by one... I m the last to noe.. Din hav to courage to go forward and ask... She said she really dunnoe how to break the news to me... With this sentence, it is obvious tt i cannot make it... And she tok to me for like half an hour abt wat is my next step in life and how shld i face it and blah blah blah... I really broke down... And i told her the problems i had wif my mother and the house chores... It is nt an easily task to handle esp when i dun even hav much time to study, do my tutorials and revision... This is so demanding... After this long "counselling", Mdm Goh left for her invigilation and my friends came in. After a while, Jing² broke the silence by telling me a lot of things and everyone started crying... I felt so bad... really bad... I felt so sorry for making them cry... "I m sorry ppl... I dun mean to make u all cry..." Then, Shumin passed me a letter which she and Jing² jus wrote it some moments ago... And we both hugged each other... And I told her nt to cry, it's nt worth crying over me.... I was really feelin down seeing all my friends crying bcos of me... BOunce cried the longest... And she's the closet to me in this class mayb bcos we were in the same class for the first 3 mths... When everyone more or less calmed down already, she is still crying and i went to her... And we hugged one another for quite a while... and i started crying again.... I really let everyone down... Seriously, i never expected i will fail so badly.... It is really beyond what anyone in my class can imagine... But after this cry with my friends, I promised them and myself that i will not quit studying and also think of doing anything silly which i did for the past week... And i also decided to continue doing the oral presentation with is the very last thing of the project. And most prob, i will also go and take the chinese paper on Nov 7 since i already paid for it.
Jus now, i jus went for steamboat with my classmates. This might be the first and last dinner i will be having with them... Haiz... It was quite nice of them to ask us along... I m glad... The steamboat was rather nice... There's 2 different types of soup- Tom Yam and Chicken. Tt's the first time i ever had this kind of steamboat and there's a name for it. It's called "Yuan Yang". I ate erm... some but din really fill myself cos dunnoe y... was feeling quite sad, angry and puzzled... I m really puzzled y Hum Ji Peng and Printer can both promote when they failed almost all their A level subjects during the common tests..... and their friend who scores well constantly was conditinally promoted... Haiz... Being able to promote means they passed 2 AO sub and 2 A sub.. and conditionally promoted is 2 AO and 1 A... Haiz... God is indeed sometimes unfair... or mayb there's something bad awaiting them... Haha... tt oily Hum Ji Peng and Printer... Wish u all the "BEST" in ur A's yah... haha... All the "BEST" leh.. hahahahahahaaha... Den in the morning, Mdm Goh called my mother to come to my sch cos the sch need to tok to her... And she was here at 10am. Had a talk with the vp and he was really so much better than the bald potassium hydroxide (KOH). The vp said tt the sch can still offer another yr, but i rejected it on the spot. Cos i dun wan another similar failure in my life. I have enough! And he say i can still go for the Australia trip, it is a learning journey, so he dun see any reasons to deprive me of learning.. Haha.. He is so gd!!! And my mother acted like as if she is very undersanding... She said tt since she already made up her mind to go poly, i dun tink can change her mind... haha.. yah rite.. act until so understanding... If she is understanding, she would nt have forced me to go jc in the very first place and made me suffered for 2 years... I will remember this... I will....!!! Before this meeting, she tried to convince me to repeat another yr... wth! I wun listen to her anymore... Mayb she tink tt she is doin all this cos she tink it is gd for me, but she nv tink whether m i suitable for tt kind of environment anot... She nv spare a thought for my feelings at all... Haiz.... Such a sad life...

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11:23 PM
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Was talking to sherline jus now... chat with jaslin and jing too... But i only felt slightly better... Sherline ask me nt to commit suicide, and leave her alone.... She wun be alone cos she has gt someone who loves her so much.... And i dun hav... SO it will be alrite for me to die.... She wants me to attend her wedding and i say i will attend in hell and give her my blessings down there.... She oso say i m suffering from depression cos i m nt acting normal. I m jus nt myself.... Last time if i m sad, i will jus listen to songs, and cry for a while and i will be ok... But now... i have been crying for a few hrs already... I jus couldn't stop crying... and I can't slp... It is already 5 plus in the morning and i can't slp!!!!!! Later still have to go to sch and do pw. Hope i can wake up on time..... Reminded my sis to change the alarm to 7.30 when she wake up... Am i really suffering from depression???? In my mind now, all i wished is to die and this will make tt lady in my house damn guilty... And i will be laughing in hell.... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.................

5:45 PM
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I think today is the worst day of my life. Woke up ard 12 den drink abit of soup and went to wdls library while my sis went to play bball with her np friends.... When i reached the lib, i realised tt it is nt open!!! ARgh...!!! Den i saw a butterfly necklace and bought for Sherline cos she say she lost her necklace and also, she likes butterfly.... Den i went to look for the anklet i like, to check whether still got stock anot... Haha... Still got.. AFter tt, went to buy red milk tea and drink den went home.. When i reached home, my parents were already home. Den my father scolding me for nt helpin out with the housework. Den i jus keep quiet cos i had actually wanted to do it after i reached home. Din expect tt they are home earlier than me...
Den my mother started scolding me.... WTH!!!!!! She say "So old already still dunnoe how to help out with the housework. Only noe how to slp and use the internet. We are all working for wat... jus to earn money for u all to study and when we come home, we still have to do housework. U dunnoe how to give a helping hand izzit! Clothes haven iron, these dry clothes nv take down, clothes haven wash, water have boil. WAT ARE U DOIN AT HOME!!!" I got so angry tt i shouted at her "I eveytime iron the clothes until i never do my homework" Den she say the same old thing again, "if last time i shout at ahma, she sure give a a few tight slaps. Grown up already, can shout back. Haven earn money for me, still dare to shout at me..."
I can't be bothered with her so i went to my room and lock myself in there.... And my sister made a very stupid choice by coming home at 7.10!!! And my parents were waiting for her to go for dinner together... She kept everyone waiting... And when she got home, my parents started scolding her and threatened to throw her out of the house. My mother even asked her to pack her stuff and leave the house immediately. Den my sister started crying and plead them, swear to them tt she wun repeat this... Den my mother say she dun wan the both of us anymore, ask US to pack and leave the house immediately. Can't be bothered with her. Jus locked myself in the room.
And my parents left for dinner leaving the both of us at home. And i din eat anything for the whole day!!!!!!!! Wat the hell!!!!! And i started crying... from 8 until 10 plus...
If this yr i cannot make it to J2. I will not study anymore, nt even poly. Instead, i will stay at home and do all the housework... TT lady will be damn glad tt she dun hav to do housework ANYMORE!!!! I wan her to feel guilty cos she is the one who ruin me. She made me go to jc when i dun wan to. She dislike poly. She discriminates poly students. She dun trust me, so in the first place, y give birth?? I cannot reach home later than 8.30, cannot choose wat i wan to wear, cannot study wat i like to. She made me iron the clothes which takes up my whole afternoon.... So where can i find time to study???? When she gets home from work, she slp.... And she claimed tt she worked so hard. As if i m nt studyin hard... I wanted to, but where can i find time????? WHERE????
When they were nt at home, i was searching for the window key, had actually wanted to commit suicide. But damnit, can't find tt stupid key. I will make sure she will regret and feel guilty for the rest of her life..... I even wanted to go to my friend's house and stay overnight, but she off her phone. ARGH!!!!
I hate my life, i hate everything!!!!!!! I want to die!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is my only wish...

11:36 PM
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Today, Sherline called me when i was in sch... was very surprised. She wanted me to go out with her cos she had some prob wif her parents and him... Her mother found out abt their relationship!!! OMG!!! Sherline left her hp at home and her mother went to take a look at it... So no privacy.... haiz... Sherline even told me wat her mother did in order to stop them frm being together... haiz... Y can't 2 person who truly love each other be together??? Haiz...
Den we went to IMM and we bought hair band.. Very nice! Hehez... But my sister say not nice... She has gt no taste... Hahaz.... Den i told my mother that i will be having dinner with Sherline and she was very angry bcos she likes the whole family to have dinner together. Wth lorz... Den she ask me to be home before 8.30 and i did! Was home at 8.20 and she started scolding that i might as well dun come home. After sch go out with friends, dun come back lah... She is making a fuss over sth so small. And she said tt i m supposed to be home before 8.30, and she still scold me when i m nt late. She oso added tt since haven 8.30, den stand outside until 8.30 den come in lah... I was damn angry with her for being so unreasonable. My father tried to help me by saying now haven 8.30. Den she repeated what she said jus now.... WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn ****ing angry with her.

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10:02 PM
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Today went to sch... Tot that the teachers will release our results to us, but was told by mdm goh tt we will only know our results on 30/10/03. haiz... still gt abt 10 days to go.. This Is So TorturIng!~~~~ Den tt chinese teacher, she told the class who is the highest and even told us how much tt person score!!! And she dun wan to tell me whether i pass my overalls anot... wth!!! I jus wan to noe pass or fail... nt demanding at all... Haha... den i keep asking her whether i pass anot, tink she gt irritated, den no choice told me tt i passed my overall... Was so scared cos she failed me for my overall common tests and etc... D7!!! First time i my life i failed chinese...!!! wth!!! I tink i m really lucky to be able to pass my overalls....
~~~!!!Thanks GOD!!!~~~ (~_^)
JUs now, i have been pia-ing the pw written report... Haiz.. Finally managed to finish typing some of it... STill got plan and evaluation haven do yet. So i cannot type.... hehe... Felt so accomplished! hahaha....
Aiyoh, now very late liao, must go and slp....

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You are loved by all, and you know it. You love
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11:57 PM
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Haha.... Today is such a boring dae... Was at home for the whole afternoon typin pw minutes.. Haiz... Den tt xh, he like nthin beta to do, he played wif me usin the msn emoticons... haiz....Haha... Today i gt back my discman!!! Haha... My sis spoiled my discman when i was sec 4.... until now den i bring it to repair... haha... so fun. The repairs cost $20. nt bad lah... cos my discman was broken into half (my sis power hor)... Haha... Haiz... Tmr will be my death dae!!! Some of my results might be out... Die Die Die.. This time sure die... Will nv RIP... Hope that God will at least give me a chance to re-exam. I must pray hard....


A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
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10:14 PM
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Today was a very long day for me...Had actually arranged to meet Xh and JJat 10 at the rooftop cafe, but i woke up at 10.25. haha... power rite! Den i went to sch at abt 11 to do project work... Xh, Junjie and i were slacking in the 2 hrs... until JY arrived... Den we started to get serious abit... Haha... Den the rooftop cafe aunty wanted to lock the door liao, so we got no choice but to go to the study benches and do our pw. After a while, JY left liao, followed by JJ. I got so tired, so did xh. Den the sch aunty approached us and ask us to leave the sch cos she is gg to lock the gates. Den xh ask her to leave first cos we still want to continue with our pw and we will climb the gate to get out of sch.... Den i was dumbfolded.... Climb the gates!!! haha... no choice lah... After a while, xh gt so tired so he took a nap.... Den i gt tired too... Haha... and i took a nap too.... abt half an hr later, both of us woke up and continue doin tt stupid pw.... Haiz.... We did the written report until 7.15, den xh have to go for dinner at marina bay.... haha... from boon lay all the way to marina bay.... Though we took a lot of time to do the written report, but it is better than some other meetings where we did nt accomplish much.... (~_^) Both of us managed to complete intro, background, lessons, conclusion... Still left plan and evaluation to do. Muz pia liao.. If nt, no time to do ppt slides which we hav to rehearse on this comin Tues...!!! Argh.... So little time left... Nvm.... I believe we can do it...!!! Yeah.... i very tired liao... wan to go and orh orh..... hehez... byei!~~~~~

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11:33 PM
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Today din go to sch.. Received phone calls from olive and she told me muz get mc if nt tt bald KOH will ask to see our parents on mon.. WTH... He organised this entrepreneur workshop for us which he thinks is gd but we think it's a waste of our time.... And i really went to polyclinic to consult doctor cos i was really sick! Havin flu, cough and sore throat... wth... so uncomfortable... When i reached home, mdm goh called my old hp no... Haha.. and my mom answered and passed me the phone... I told her i din go to sch cos i was sick... (tt's true!) and gt myself a mc... And she even asked whether i stayed throughout the whole workshop yesterday and i said no... went home after the break cos i was feeling uncomfortable (tt's fake!! haha... i went cycling remember???) I oso told her i left sch alone... Haha... Hope tt she believes me.... So sleepy.... Tink i gg to slp liao, the medicine i took jus now is takin effect liao...

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person.You really can't get them out of your
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11:30 AM
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Today was a rather erm... 'interesting" day... There's this entrepreneur workshop in sch from 8-4!!! wth lorz... And we have to pay for this workshop which cost $6 but tt phy tutor of mine- Mr Yong, claimed tt sch paid for us... Yah Yah Yah... This morning, I was having breakfast happily wif shumin, olive and net, den Yong jus came over and question us:"Where are u all supposed to be now?" And he keeps repeating this qns, and shumin answered him. Luckily she was holdin onto the written report and Yong mistaken us as doing Pw. Haha... He den ask us to go to LT5 for the workshop. And we were like so late for it... We den walk towards the direction of LT5, but Yong never expect us to make our way to grandstand instead!!! Haha... Grandstand is like our refugee... Haha...
Shumin suggested to go to East Coast to cycle... Den i made shumin miss 4 no.99 buses... Haha... Paiseh.... Because i dunnoe wat excuse to tell my mother that i m gg home n nt attending tt stupid workshop. After abt 15 mins of discussing, haha... i finally called my mom and tell her tt i m gg home... haha (~_^) And before i go and cycle, I sweeped the floor and changed the bedsheets.. haha...
Goin to East Coast was nt easy bcos net dunnoe which stop to alight and she dun wan to ask the bus driver.... So, in the end, i m the one who went to ask. (Brave hor.... me thick skin leh... haha) And the bus driver was so gd tt he told us which stop to alight and which direction to walk to East Coast... (ThAnKs UnC|e!!!) It is so fun cycling at East Coast... Actually had abit of phobia for in sec 2, i got my left face disfigured!!! And also, my front tooth nearly dropped, i gt my new spects scratched and my slipper was torn!!! And tt very day was the day I managed how to cycle... Wat rotten luck! Since then, dun really dare to cycle... But today, I managed to overcome my "cycling phobia"... Haha...So happy... And I brought sunblock. Actually wanted to apply before I cycle, but was too lazy... And now i m so red!!!! Haha... Dunnoe whether this is gd or bad...cos i wun get sunburnt and get my skin peeled.. I will only become red for a few days... and tt's it... Haha... Den... i forgot to remove my watch and haha... got 2 different skin colours... haha... And it is so obvious... Now i dun dare to remove my watch and see tt small patch of fair colour there... Haiz... So forgetful of me... haha
Haha... Today shumin, olive, net and i took 196 to clementi and we tot the trip was only abt 45mins, but in the end, it was abt 1hr15mins...! Argh... and i reached home at abt 7.30> My parents and sister was waiting for me to go for dinner... But there's nothin i can do... Though my nickname is "bird", but i m one who do nt noe how to fly... like penguins... haha... After dinner, i rested for a while den bath den start ironing the clothes... Haiz... I hate ironing clothes!!! It is so time consuming... Erm... tink the test rather stupid cos it is impossible for me to be in RI cos i m a GIRL!!! Anyway... next life bah.. haha.... "Might get the chance to be in there huh..." hehez... Oops... Din realise i types so much liao... Haha.. Tink i'll end here..... (~_^)

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11:56 PM
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Today, i helped my sis to do her blogger too... and her friends commented tt it is very nice... Gd for my sis... (~_^) Hope tt she is happy... Recently, my sis and i got closer compared to last time... so happy again... Haha... hope this will last and never end... (~_^)
Haha... So happy today... Jus got home after goin to Ngee Ann poly cos there got Isetan sale... Dunnoe wat is Isetan doin there... This afternoon, Sherline called me and told me they are sellin water bottles, clothes, shoes and etc up to 70% off... Since i m nt studyin today... so i went... Haha... I bought a very cute water bottle for only $5.90... though it is rather small... but very cute!!! Actually wanted to buy one for my sis, but she jus bought a very BIG water bottle on sat. Still thinkin whether to buy one for her or nt.... Cos she quite like it... haha...
Jus nw i had my dinner at clementi KFC. The "CLEANER" there is really very clean. Whenever i jus finish the chicken, he immediately keep the paper plate away. And Sherline jus finished hers, the cleaner took the whole tray away.... Den she realised he even took the serviettes and the spoon for eating whipped potato... Haha... i was rather scared of him. Den Sherline got no choice but ask her bf to go and get a spoon for her. So funny....
After dinner, went to play DDR with Sherline... if i continue playin this everyday... haha... i will sure lose weight... And i dun mind playin it... Haha...
So strange, today i called home and tell my mom i will be home late, and she jus say ok and nothin else... And the main pt is, she dun sound angry at all.... I m suspicious of her.... And when i got home, she jus said y can't i come home earlier, and she stopped. She din even start readin from her script! haha...

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11:19 PM
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Haha... today din go for pw.... Overslept... Only woke up when "will be round" gave me a call... Haha... Luckily i din go.. cos the meeting only lasted for half an hour... and it is less than the time i travel to sch!!! haha... BEST!!!
Haiz.... Today kenna scoldin again... My mom say the same old things again.. Wonder is she reading from a script... haiz... I really wish to stay away from home a few days.... but.... dun hav the guts to do so... She is really makin me mad and damn pressurised! She expects me to help wif the housework and yet score gd grades... She tot one day got 48hrs!!! wth!!! I dunnoe how much longer can I tolerate her.... Really wanted to shout at her, but after all, she is my mother. wat can i do??? nthin... practically nthin...


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1:20 AM
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Hiya...... promos finally over liao... but somehow still wish that it is nt over yet.... Haiz... Yesterday and today was scolded by my mom for nt helpin her in the housework... wth lorz.... she keeps nagging that i dun hav to do housework and yet score lousy results.... If i din help her with the housework... so who is the one who irons her clothes??? Ghost??? And she keeps saying that other children oso help out with the housework and score VERY WELL... That is other ppl's business... she care for wat... I m nt other ppl's child... And she always say i slp and din study... She dun even noe how tiring izit and she herself oso always slp and din do housework! wth!!! And she always wake me up middle of the night to study... 4am!!!! When most ppl are slpin, she wakes me up jus to study... Sometimes I m really so stressed out... but no one noes.... all they see is a cheerful side of me... but in fact, i m so stressed out tt i cried when no one is at home... I m so stressed wif sch work, so stressed wif housework.. so stressed wif ALL THE WORK!!! Tink i beta end here.....


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down a warm, caring heart.


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10:39 PM
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Wah... it's been some time since i jus updated my blog... Was nt in the mood to update it cos i was damn worried with my results and being able to promote to J2 is really a gigantic question mark to me.... Finally, on thurs, Mdm goh released the promotion results one by one... I m the last to noe.. Din hav to courage to go forward and ask... She said she really dunnoe how to break the news to me... With this sentence, it is obvious tt i cannot make it... And she tok to me for like half an hour abt wat is my next step in life and how shld i face it and blah blah blah... I really broke down... And i told her the problems i had wif my mother and the house chores... It is nt an easily task to handle esp when i dun even hav much time to study, do my tutorials and revision... This is so demanding... After this long "counselling", Mdm Goh left for her invigilation and my friends came in. After a while, Jing² broke the silence by telling me a lot of things and everyone started crying... I felt so bad... really bad... I felt so sorry for making them cry... "I m sorry ppl... I dun mean to make u all cry..." Then, Shumin passed me a letter which she and Jing² jus wrote it some moments ago... And we both hugged each other... And I told her nt to cry, it's nt worth crying over me.... I was really feelin down seeing all my friends crying bcos of me... BOunce cried the longest... And she's the closet to me in this class mayb bcos we were in the same class for the first 3 mths... When everyone more or less calmed down already, she is still crying and i went to her... And we hugged one another for quite a while... and i started crying again.... I really let everyone down... Seriously, i never expected i will fail so badly.... It is really beyond what anyone in my class can imagine... But after this cry with my friends, I promised them and myself that i will not quit studying and also think of doing anything silly which i did for the past week... And i also decided to continue doing the oral presentation with is the very last thing of the project. And most prob, i will also go and take the chinese paper on Nov 7 since i already paid for it.
Jus now, i jus went for steamboat with my classmates. This might be the first and last dinner i will be having with them... Haiz... It was quite nice of them to ask us along... I m glad... The steamboat was rather nice... There's 2 different types of soup- Tom Yam and Chicken. Tt's the first time i ever had this kind of steamboat and there's a name for it. It's called "Yuan Yang". I ate erm... some but din really fill myself cos dunnoe y... was feeling quite sad, angry and puzzled... I m really puzzled y Hum Ji Peng and Printer can both promote when they failed almost all their A level subjects during the common tests..... and their friend who scores well constantly was conditinally promoted... Haiz... Being able to promote means they passed 2 AO sub and 2 A sub.. and conditionally promoted is 2 AO and 1 A... Haiz... God is indeed sometimes unfair... or mayb there's something bad awaiting them... Haha... tt oily Hum Ji Peng and Printer... Wish u all the "BEST" in ur A's yah... haha... All the "BEST" leh.. hahahahahahaaha... Den in the morning, Mdm Goh called my mother to come to my sch cos the sch need to tok to her... And she was here at 10am. Had a talk with the vp and he was really so much better than the bald potassium hydroxide (KOH). The vp said tt the sch can still offer another yr, but i rejected it on the spot. Cos i dun wan another similar failure in my life. I have enough! And he say i can still go for the Australia trip, it is a learning journey, so he dun see any reasons to deprive me of learning.. Haha.. He is so gd!!! And my mother acted like as if she is very undersanding... She said tt since she already made up her mind to go poly, i dun tink can change her mind... haha.. yah rite.. act until so understanding... If she is understanding, she would nt have forced me to go jc in the very first place and made me suffered for 2 years... I will remember this... I will....!!! Before this meeting, she tried to convince me to repeat another yr... wth! I wun listen to her anymore... Mayb she tink tt she is doin all this cos she tink it is gd for me, but she nv tink whether m i suitable for tt kind of environment anot... She nv spare a thought for my feelings at all... Haiz.... Such a sad life...

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


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11:23 PM
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Was talking to sherline jus now... chat with jaslin and jing too... But i only felt slightly better... Sherline ask me nt to commit suicide, and leave her alone.... She wun be alone cos she has gt someone who loves her so much.... And i dun hav... SO it will be alrite for me to die.... She wants me to attend her wedding and i say i will attend in hell and give her my blessings down there.... She oso say i m suffering from depression cos i m nt acting normal. I m jus nt myself.... Last time if i m sad, i will jus listen to songs, and cry for a while and i will be ok... But now... i have been crying for a few hrs already... I jus couldn't stop crying... and I can't slp... It is already 5 plus in the morning and i can't slp!!!!!! Later still have to go to sch and do pw. Hope i can wake up on time..... Reminded my sis to change the alarm to 7.30 when she wake up... Am i really suffering from depression???? In my mind now, all i wished is to die and this will make tt lady in my house damn guilty... And i will be laughing in hell.... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.................

5:45 PM
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I think today is the worst day of my life. Woke up ard 12 den drink abit of soup and went to wdls library while my sis went to play bball with her np friends.... When i reached the lib, i realised tt it is nt open!!! ARgh...!!! Den i saw a butterfly necklace and bought for Sherline cos she say she lost her necklace and also, she likes butterfly.... Den i went to look for the anklet i like, to check whether still got stock anot... Haha... Still got.. AFter tt, went to buy red milk tea and drink den went home.. When i reached home, my parents were already home. Den my father scolding me for nt helpin out with the housework. Den i jus keep quiet cos i had actually wanted to do it after i reached home. Din expect tt they are home earlier than me...
Den my mother started scolding me.... WTH!!!!!! She say "So old already still dunnoe how to help out with the housework. Only noe how to slp and use the internet. We are all working for wat... jus to earn money for u all to study and when we come home, we still have to do housework. U dunnoe how to give a helping hand izzit! Clothes haven iron, these dry clothes nv take down, clothes haven wash, water have boil. WAT ARE U DOIN AT HOME!!!" I got so angry tt i shouted at her "I eveytime iron the clothes until i never do my homework" Den she say the same old thing again, "if last time i shout at ahma, she sure give a a few tight slaps. Grown up already, can shout back. Haven earn money for me, still dare to shout at me..."
I can't be bothered with her so i went to my room and lock myself in there.... And my sister made a very stupid choice by coming home at 7.10!!! And my parents were waiting for her to go for dinner together... She kept everyone waiting... And when she got home, my parents started scolding her and threatened to throw her out of the house. My mother even asked her to pack her stuff and leave the house immediately. Den my sister started crying and plead them, swear to them tt she wun repeat this... Den my mother say she dun wan the both of us anymore, ask US to pack and leave the house immediately. Can't be bothered with her. Jus locked myself in the room.
And my parents left for dinner leaving the both of us at home. And i din eat anything for the whole day!!!!!!!! Wat the hell!!!!! And i started crying... from 8 until 10 plus...
If this yr i cannot make it to J2. I will not study anymore, nt even poly. Instead, i will stay at home and do all the housework... TT lady will be damn glad tt she dun hav to do housework ANYMORE!!!! I wan her to feel guilty cos she is the one who ruin me. She made me go to jc when i dun wan to. She dislike poly. She discriminates poly students. She dun trust me, so in the first place, y give birth?? I cannot reach home later than 8.30, cannot choose wat i wan to wear, cannot study wat i like to. She made me iron the clothes which takes up my whole afternoon.... So where can i find time to study???? When she gets home from work, she slp.... And she claimed tt she worked so hard. As if i m nt studyin hard... I wanted to, but where can i find time????? WHERE????
When they were nt at home, i was searching for the window key, had actually wanted to commit suicide. But damnit, can't find tt stupid key. I will make sure she will regret and feel guilty for the rest of her life..... I even wanted to go to my friend's house and stay overnight, but she off her phone. ARGH!!!!
I hate my life, i hate everything!!!!!!! I want to die!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is my only wish...

11:36 PM
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Today, Sherline called me when i was in sch... was very surprised. She wanted me to go out with her cos she had some prob wif her parents and him... Her mother found out abt their relationship!!! OMG!!! Sherline left her hp at home and her mother went to take a look at it... So no privacy.... haiz... Sherline even told me wat her mother did in order to stop them frm being together... haiz... Y can't 2 person who truly love each other be together??? Haiz...
Den we went to IMM and we bought hair band.. Very nice! Hehez... But my sister say not nice... She has gt no taste... Hahaz.... Den i told my mother that i will be having dinner with Sherline and she was very angry bcos she likes the whole family to have dinner together. Wth lorz... Den she ask me to be home before 8.30 and i did! Was home at 8.20 and she started scolding that i might as well dun come home. After sch go out with friends, dun come back lah... She is making a fuss over sth so small. And she said tt i m supposed to be home before 8.30, and she still scold me when i m nt late. She oso added tt since haven 8.30, den stand outside until 8.30 den come in lah... I was damn angry with her for being so unreasonable. My father tried to help me by saying now haven 8.30. Den she repeated what she said jus now.... WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn ****ing angry with her.

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10:02 PM
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Today went to sch... Tot that the teachers will release our results to us, but was told by mdm goh tt we will only know our results on 30/10/03. haiz... still gt abt 10 days to go.. This Is So TorturIng!~~~~ Den tt chinese teacher, she told the class who is the highest and even told us how much tt person score!!! And she dun wan to tell me whether i pass my overalls anot... wth!!! I jus wan to noe pass or fail... nt demanding at all... Haha... den i keep asking her whether i pass anot, tink she gt irritated, den no choice told me tt i passed my overall... Was so scared cos she failed me for my overall common tests and etc... D7!!! First time i my life i failed chinese...!!! wth!!! I tink i m really lucky to be able to pass my overalls....
~~~!!!Thanks GOD!!!~~~ (~_^)
JUs now, i have been pia-ing the pw written report... Haiz.. Finally managed to finish typing some of it... STill got plan and evaluation haven do yet. So i cannot type.... hehe... Felt so accomplished! hahaha....
Aiyoh, now very late liao, must go and slp....

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You are loved by all, and you know it. You love
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11:57 PM
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Haha.... Today is such a boring dae... Was at home for the whole afternoon typin pw minutes.. Haiz... Den tt xh, he like nthin beta to do, he played wif me usin the msn emoticons... haiz....Haha... Today i gt back my discman!!! Haha... My sis spoiled my discman when i was sec 4.... until now den i bring it to repair... haha... so fun. The repairs cost $20. nt bad lah... cos my discman was broken into half (my sis power hor)... Haha... Haiz... Tmr will be my death dae!!! Some of my results might be out... Die Die Die.. This time sure die... Will nv RIP... Hope that God will at least give me a chance to re-exam. I must pray hard....


A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
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10:14 PM
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Today was a very long day for me...Had actually arranged to meet Xh and JJat 10 at the rooftop cafe, but i woke up at 10.25. haha... power rite! Den i went to sch at abt 11 to do project work... Xh, Junjie and i were slacking in the 2 hrs... until JY arrived... Den we started to get serious abit... Haha... Den the rooftop cafe aunty wanted to lock the door liao, so we got no choice but to go to the study benches and do our pw. After a while, JY left liao, followed by JJ. I got so tired, so did xh. Den the sch aunty approached us and ask us to leave the sch cos she is gg to lock the gates. Den xh ask her to leave first cos we still want to continue with our pw and we will climb the gate to get out of sch.... Den i was dumbfolded.... Climb the gates!!! haha... no choice lah... After a while, xh gt so tired so he took a nap.... Den i gt tired too... Haha... and i took a nap too.... abt half an hr later, both of us woke up and continue doin tt stupid pw.... Haiz.... We did the written report until 7.15, den xh have to go for dinner at marina bay.... haha... from boon lay all the way to marina bay.... Though we took a lot of time to do the written report, but it is better than some other meetings where we did nt accomplish much.... (~_^) Both of us managed to complete intro, background, lessons, conclusion... Still left plan and evaluation to do. Muz pia liao.. If nt, no time to do ppt slides which we hav to rehearse on this comin Tues...!!! Argh.... So little time left... Nvm.... I believe we can do it...!!! Yeah.... i very tired liao... wan to go and orh orh..... hehez... byei!~~~~~

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11:33 PM
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Today din go to sch.. Received phone calls from olive and she told me muz get mc if nt tt bald KOH will ask to see our parents on mon.. WTH... He organised this entrepreneur workshop for us which he thinks is gd but we think it's a waste of our time.... And i really went to polyclinic to consult doctor cos i was really sick! Havin flu, cough and sore throat... wth... so uncomfortable... When i reached home, mdm goh called my old hp no... Haha.. and my mom answered and passed me the phone... I told her i din go to sch cos i was sick... (tt's true!) and gt myself a mc... And she even asked whether i stayed throughout the whole workshop yesterday and i said no... went home after the break cos i was feeling uncomfortable (tt's fake!! haha... i went cycling remember???) I oso told her i left sch alone... Haha... Hope tt she believes me.... So sleepy.... Tink i gg to slp liao, the medicine i took jus now is takin effect liao...

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11:30 AM
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Today was a rather erm... 'interesting" day... There's this entrepreneur workshop in sch from 8-4!!! wth lorz... And we have to pay for this workshop which cost $6 but tt phy tutor of mine- Mr Yong, claimed tt sch paid for us... Yah Yah Yah... This morning, I was having breakfast happily wif shumin, olive and net, den Yong jus came over and question us:"Where are u all supposed to be now?" And he keeps repeating this qns, and shumin answered him. Luckily she was holdin onto the written report and Yong mistaken us as doing Pw. Haha... He den ask us to go to LT5 for the workshop. And we were like so late for it... We den walk towards the direction of LT5, but Yong never expect us to make our way to grandstand instead!!! Haha... Grandstand is like our refugee... Haha...
Shumin suggested to go to East Coast to cycle... Den i made shumin miss 4 no.99 buses... Haha... Paiseh.... Because i dunnoe wat excuse to tell my mother that i m gg home n nt attending tt stupid workshop. After abt 15 mins of discussing, haha... i finally called my mom and tell her tt i m gg home... haha (~_^) And before i go and cycle, I sweeped the floor and changed the bedsheets.. haha...
Goin to East Coast was nt easy bcos net dunnoe which stop to alight and she dun wan to ask the bus driver.... So, in the end, i m the one who went to ask. (Brave hor.... me thick skin leh... haha) And the bus driver was so gd tt he told us which stop to alight and which direction to walk to East Coast... (ThAnKs UnC|e!!!) It is so fun cycling at East Coast... Actually had abit of phobia for in sec 2, i got my left face disfigured!!! And also, my front tooth nearly dropped, i gt my new spects scratched and my slipper was torn!!! And tt very day was the day I managed how to cycle... Wat rotten luck! Since then, dun really dare to cycle... But today, I managed to overcome my "cycling phobia"... Haha...So happy... And I brought sunblock. Actually wanted to apply before I cycle, but was too lazy... And now i m so red!!!! Haha... Dunnoe whether this is gd or bad...cos i wun get sunburnt and get my skin peeled.. I will only become red for a few days... and tt's it... Haha... Den... i forgot to remove my watch and haha... got 2 different skin colours... haha... And it is so obvious... Now i dun dare to remove my watch and see tt small patch of fair colour there... Haiz... So forgetful of me... haha
Haha... Today shumin, olive, net and i took 196 to clementi and we tot the trip was only abt 45mins, but in the end, it was abt 1hr15mins...! Argh... and i reached home at abt 7.30> My parents and sister was waiting for me to go for dinner... But there's nothin i can do... Though my nickname is "bird", but i m one who do nt noe how to fly... like penguins... haha... After dinner, i rested for a while den bath den start ironing the clothes... Haiz... I hate ironing clothes!!! It is so time consuming... Erm... tink the test rather stupid cos it is impossible for me to be in RI cos i m a GIRL!!! Anyway... next life bah.. haha.... "Might get the chance to be in there huh..." hehez... Oops... Din realise i types so much liao... Haha.. Tink i'll end here..... (~_^)

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11:56 PM
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Today, i helped my sis to do her blogger too... and her friends commented tt it is very nice... Gd for my sis... (~_^) Hope tt she is happy... Recently, my sis and i got closer compared to last time... so happy again... Haha... hope this will last and never end... (~_^)
Haha... So happy today... Jus got home after goin to Ngee Ann poly cos there got Isetan sale... Dunnoe wat is Isetan doin there... This afternoon, Sherline called me and told me they are sellin water bottles, clothes, shoes and etc up to 70% off... Since i m nt studyin today... so i went... Haha... I bought a very cute water bottle for only $5.90... though it is rather small... but very cute!!! Actually wanted to buy one for my sis, but she jus bought a very BIG water bottle on sat. Still thinkin whether to buy one for her or nt.... Cos she quite like it... haha...
Jus nw i had my dinner at clementi KFC. The "CLEANER" there is really very clean. Whenever i jus finish the chicken, he immediately keep the paper plate away. And Sherline jus finished hers, the cleaner took the whole tray away.... Den she realised he even took the serviettes and the spoon for eating whipped potato... Haha... i was rather scared of him. Den Sherline got no choice but ask her bf to go and get a spoon for her. So funny....
After dinner, went to play DDR with Sherline... if i continue playin this everyday... haha... i will sure lose weight... And i dun mind playin it... Haha...
So strange, today i called home and tell my mom i will be home late, and she jus say ok and nothin else... And the main pt is, she dun sound angry at all.... I m suspicious of her.... And when i got home, she jus said y can't i come home earlier, and she stopped. She din even start readin from her script! haha...

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11:19 PM
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Haha... today din go for pw.... Overslept... Only woke up when "will be round" gave me a call... Haha... Luckily i din go.. cos the meeting only lasted for half an hour... and it is less than the time i travel to sch!!! haha... BEST!!!
Haiz.... Today kenna scoldin again... My mom say the same old things again.. Wonder is she reading from a script... haiz... I really wish to stay away from home a few days.... but.... dun hav the guts to do so... She is really makin me mad and damn pressurised! She expects me to help wif the housework and yet score gd grades... She tot one day got 48hrs!!! wth!!! I dunnoe how much longer can I tolerate her.... Really wanted to shout at her, but after all, she is my mother. wat can i do??? nthin... practically nthin...


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J-Pop (Japanese music). She's bigger than
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writes deep and meaningful lyrics, has composed
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1:20 AM
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Hiya...... promos finally over liao... but somehow still wish that it is nt over yet.... Haiz... Yesterday and today was scolded by my mom for nt helpin her in the housework... wth lorz.... she keeps nagging that i dun hav to do housework and yet score lousy results.... If i din help her with the housework... so who is the one who irons her clothes??? Ghost??? And she keeps saying that other children oso help out with the housework and score VERY WELL... That is other ppl's business... she care for wat... I m nt other ppl's child... And she always say i slp and din study... She dun even noe how tiring izit and she herself oso always slp and din do housework! wth!!! And she always wake me up middle of the night to study... 4am!!!! When most ppl are slpin, she wakes me up jus to study... Sometimes I m really so stressed out... but no one noes.... all they see is a cheerful side of me... but in fact, i m so stressed out tt i cried when no one is at home... I m so stressed wif sch work, so stressed wif housework.. so stressed wif ALL THE WORK!!! Tink i beta end here.....


Goddess of winter, with a cold exterior but deep
down a warm, caring heart.


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10:39 PM
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